On an evening such as this, it’s hard to tell if I exist.
If I pack the car and leave this town, who’ll notice that I’m not around?
(Pinch Me, Barenaked Ladies)
If I pack the car and leave this town, who’ll notice that I’m not around?
(Pinch Me, Barenaked Ladies)
One of my favorite songs has a vulnerable – and yet somehow catchy – line that seems to come out of nowhere, just moments after describing simple pleasures like running through the sprinkler and taking long naps.
But isn’t that how insecurity and fears are? Coming at us when we least expect it, slamming into our hearts and shadowing our minds before we even know what hit us?
Last week I auditioned for a solo at church. For nine months, I’ve known that I wanted to sing a certain song at the Christmas program, and Thursday was my day to make that happen.
Things did not go as planned.
To read the rest of this story, head over to (in)courage.
Hi, Mary. Two real quick things for you.
1–*Thank you* for appreciating BNL, and for appreciating them in public. I think they're catchy (a good beat and sweet piano line can make even the most depressing song interesting!) about as much as They Might Be Giants. They're pretty good, too.
2–*Thank you* for posting about doubts. Your word was pretty necessary for me today. :)
My girls try to get everyone possible with the "underwear" line from that song. love it.
And yes, as a fellow ENFJ, I feel this way all the time. ALL the time. I just keep reminding myself of Ecclesiastes – a season for everything.
Sometimes, when things don't go as planned, it works out better than you expected. I remember that I didn't get a part in our local theater's production of "Barefoot in the Park" and I was CRUSHED. I cried for days. The show that came up 2 weeks later at another theater? I got the part and met my husband. Sometimes life's dissapointments lead to great opportunities. You already know that, but it merits saying again.
You are loved, dear Mary. :)
We love BNL and have been to several concerts. Just don't try to Google the name of the band to find tickets. That's all.
I left a comment over at (in)courage but I just wanted to say thank you again for sharing from your heart. I really needed to read this today. Blessings to you!
That song also has one of my favorite stupid jokes: I guess I'll hide out under there. I just made you say "under where!"
Yep…it's a classic.
Mar, you are the wonderful, beautiful, and talented creation of THE CREATOR. We see only snipets of the big picture He is painting for each of us. Thankfully, as you said, He steps back and says, "WOW" over each of us. Thank you for sharing your heart.
Way to go, Mary! Great post and you are a GREAT person.
"God looks at me, and He says 'Wow.'"
Amen!!!
I've been wanting to use my singing talent at church too. I haven't had the nerve to audition yet though. It's been years since I sang a solo! It's hard when you feel you have a certain gift and have a passion for that gift- and don't receive the response from others that you want. Thanks for a post that was very timely for me :)
I love your post! Some times it's nice to get a Wow from the world. Really nice to get a wow from the world.
It's a nice reminder that we get a wow from God. We don't even have to ask, we just need to pay attention.
Thanks!!
Came over from InCourage. Great post. Hit my heart. We talked about this in our small group a few weeks ago – how we look to feel worthy, even adequate by the world, yet just by making us God has called us worthy of Him. We are His creation and that's enough to be special in His eyes; the only one that matters. Maybe part of it is a pride issue, too. I've been there many times. If we get wows from others, why would we need to think about if we are pleasing Him, which should be all that matters?
Well, you know what Michael Scott's mother always said: Average people are some of the most special people in the world. That's why God made so many of them. :D (I liked it anyway;)